TVXQ forever..

i had been like three days since i received my results..
never dreamed tat it will b this bad..
after all the effort tat i had put in..
mayb luck was just on my side..
or mayb i’m not meant for form six..
who noes??
although many days as passed by..
my feelings are still confusing..
i’m confused wif myself..
am i happy??sad??
i just don’t really noe..
just wan to forget everything for now..
sounds easy..
but i just can’t do it..
with ppl around me asking n talking abt stpm..
giving advice n stuffs..
sumtimes i feel suffocated..
but i know tat they just r just worried abt me..
so i should not blame them..
but sumtimes it is just not right..
hope tat everything will turn out fine soon..
can’t handle too much disappointment at one time….
T.T

two more days to go..
and the results will b out..
omg..
i can’t believe it..
feelings??
i feel like dying..
hope i can forget all abt it b4 the day comes..
seems like its impossible..
cause ppl are talking abt it everywhere i go..
come on ppl..
stop talking n asking..
let me be in peace pls..( beg,beg )
everything seems to be upside down these few days..
with my mind being elsewhere..
who noes where.. T.T
why is it that I dun have the confidence??
I’m dying again.. T.T
i know that there is nothing that i can do now..
except praying..which to me feels like its too late even for that..
haiz..
just want to get over with it fast..
may it be good or bad..
the blame will be on me, myself and I..
haiz..
at least something good happen yesterday..
saw the cute senior from bio tuition yesterday..
haha..
he didn’t change a bit..
but he couldn’t recognise me..
haha..
it’s not like he knows me..
hehe..
I’ll just it here..
hope to see him again..